Tag: My Creative Journey

Lauren recently created a 'My Creative Journey' blog tag and kindly tagged me to take part too, so I thought I'd take a little time out of my evening to sit down and have a think about my own creative journey as of late. And so the questions go... 

staying positive as a creative

 above you can view me in my natural habitat: lounging around like a tramp in my pyjamas, wading my way through various books while trying to pull together some ideas worthy of any merit

i haven't kept it a secret on my blog over the last couple of months that i've been struggling creatively, and for a while i'd been thinking about the things that i do and the mindset i try to adopt in those times of crisis, and decided that i wanted to jot them down into actual words rather than scattered thoughts, however it wasn't until reading through a book today that i found any kind of motivation and wanted to actually put pen (my fingers) to paper (to my keyboard.)

now, i'm not claiming to hold all the secrets to creative happiness, because if i'm honest, i don't think it exists (not permanently, anyway,) what with creatives generally being a huge bunch of perfectionists, but i think i can at least share what i feel helps me to feel momentarily better in the hopes that it might inspire or help somebody else out, too. my audience here is perhaps a little broad, but i'm deciding to aim it at 'creatives', who i'd describe as people who bring new things into existence based on their own thoughts and ideas, so if you feel that the term applies to you, feel free to sit down and have a read. heck, make yourself a cuppa and get comfortable if you so wish it. 

the very books that provided my brief kick up the bum; picture book enthusiasts, i recommend!

one: take time out when you need it

over the summer i struggled with the idea of taking time out, and in attempting to do so failed miserably. i think i went wrong because i failed to set myself any time limits (or deadlines, per se,) so i just kind of lost track of time, organisation, and along with it my motivation. while it's important to realise when you've burnt out and need a little recovery time, it's also important to keep yourself well organised and aware of when work needs to start again so you can understand your 'free time' and in effect use it wisely. these breaks can be as long or as short as you feel necessary – from a quick hour break with a cuppa to a week's worth of seeing friends and exploring your surrounding areas – but it's important to be honest with yourself and clearly outline what constitutes as a break, and what's actually helping to steer you off track and curb creativity. 

it's also important to remember that your 'breaks' can help you see current projects in a new light, or help to spark ideas for new projects altogether. carrying a notebook around with you at all times is useful for jotting down any sketches, words or phrases that occur to you that could come in handy later but may be forgotten in the moment. a couple of my favourite projects have simply come from words i've jotted down or thoughts i've had that i've revisited later, so although at the time it can seem a little bit pointless, it's important to remember that most big things start out small!

two: try to silence the voice of self doubt

if there's anything i've learnt since becoming a part of several online illustration communities, it's that all illustrators, no matter how big or small, go through serious bouts of self doubt and a lack of confidence in their own work. to me it seems completely bizarre to read illustrators such as gemma correll or alex t. smith for example tweeting about how they can't draw this or that because i know that they're utterly fantastic at what they do, yet in a sense it's oddly refreshing to know that these seemingly superhuman people sometimes struggle too; not because i love that other people face internal dilemmas, but because i think to myself, "but their work is fantastic, how could they ever doubt it?!" and it makes me consider that, "hey, maybe my work isn't as bad as i think it is?" i'm not sure if to think that way fills me with false confidence, but hey, a positive mindset spurs me on to draw more than a negative one does, and that can only ever encourage progression. so, the next time you're flicking through your sketchbook pages despairing, just take a moment to tell yourself that you're probably not as bad as you think you are, and then create a little more until you can see that for yourself.

three: you don't know that there isn't room for you

a demon of mine that occurs quite frequently is the fact that in an already saturated market of fantastic children's illustrators, there just isn't room for me within there. it's extremely easy to look at the work already out there and compare your own work to it, and it's even easier to attempt to emulate the work you see, but it's important to remember that developing your own style, or 'visual language', is the one thing that will potentially see you through into a successful career. if you take a walk into a bookshop and browse the picture books section, it's easy to spot particular trends and what's currently popular, and while most of it is extremely beautiful and skilfully executed, i do think that there's very little room for progression within the field when such work is being chosen over and over again, and i no doubt believe this will be true across many creative fields. 

it can be a daunting task presenting work that doesn't bare resemblance to anything you know to have once been successful, but in doing so you're helping to push boundaries within your chosen field and that will no doubt get your work noticed – after all, just because your work looks different to what's expected doesn't mean that it's bad, right? in the past i've let myself become too worried with others' work and attempted to emulate particular aesthetics, but i found that i created my best work when i let go of those worries and instead just created what came naturally to me, and i intend to keep on creating work in the same fashion in the hopes that i can build up a distinct visual language like many other successful illustrators have done. of course i can't comment on the effectiveness of this strategy just yet, but i feel happy knowing that i'm trying to create my own work rather than just blindly copying those who came before me. i think the key here is to believe in yourself, work hard, and not give up, and in terms of university, those things have seen me through pretty well so far.

a messy desk and the intimate beginnings of a project

four: just do what you can, when you can

in the age of social media, following the accounts of the creatives you most admire can be both a blessing and a curse; the intimacy that comes with the frequent instagram updates of the very beginnings of pieces of work is not only inspiring, but it can often be a little disheartening to realise that you don't churn out work half as fast as your favourite creative does. again, it's important here to remember to not compare yourself to others too much as we all work at our own paces and in completely different ways. if you want to take inspiration from an individual's way of working or the speed at which they work that's completely fine, but when you begin to think bad things about your own working process because of it then it's time to take a step back and start thinking a little bit more sensibly.

while the mind of a creative is always switched on, things often get in the way to stunt our 'physical creativity', the time spent actually making things; outstanding projects, food shops, hangover days, whatever they are, things will always crop up to get in the way of you sitting down and working, but this is where it again becomes important to carry around a sketchbook. sure, you might not be able to develop and create your masterpiece there and then, but at least you know the seedling has been safely planted in your sketchbook ready to be grown another day when the time becomes available.

five: always stay switched on

going back to point four, while it's not always possible to be sat at your desk pulling your ideas together and creating your physical work, it is always possible to be thinking about current projects or potential future projects. while lately i've been a little unproductive in creating physical work, not a day goes by where i'm not thinking about the projects i currently have on the go or new ones i'd like to one day pursue.

i'm not a superhuman unfortunately, and i do occasionally hit a wall creatively and struggle to find inspiration to get me back on my feet and going again, but i've found that i can get myself going again pretty quickly by doing a couple of things. one thing i like to do is to listen to everything going on around me, because no doubt i'll hear something intriguing that i can jot down for later; one of my latest favourites was a couple of little old ladies in a council building complaining about the wait time and wishing there was a burger van outside to keep them occupied while waiting, and while i haven't done anything with it, it's jotted down in my sketchbook, should my eyes scan over it in the future and find inspiration from it.

another thing that helps to inspire and motivate me pretty much instantly is sitting down and reading a good bloody book, but i suppose a good web article or blog post would do the same thing. a couple of books i've read recently that have given me a swift kick up the bum are show your work! by austin kleon and illustrating children's books by martin ursell. i'd recommend show your work! to any creative who's wanting to learn a bit more about self promotion tools, but of course illustrating children's books is for a more specific audience, but it provides some fantastic examples of work and some really helpful tips for working within the picture book format that i found made me just want to stop everything i was doing and start drawing (unfortunately i couldn't, though, as i was researching for my dissertation...)

six: just be nice!

and finally, a short and sweet paragraph to wrap this horribly long post up with. i've found that online, being nice, having a positive attitude and interacting positively with other creatives really helps to spread positivity all round. while it can be easy to wallow in self pity – and i'm definitely guilty of it myself over on twitter on occasion! – nobody likes reading about how badly you feel about yourself and your work at the minute, so just suck it up, look at some great work, compliment the creator of it to make their day a little better while inspiring yourself to want to be better, and you're already making a fantastic start on achieving an altogether more positive mindset and contributing to the creative community. 

now, of course i'm happy to engage in healthy debate about what keeps us creatives positive, but please, if you don't agree with anything i've said, try to tell me in a polite, respectful manner – after all, the last thing we want is to spread more negativity, right? so if you have any burning opinions or tips of your own you'd love to share with me or any other creatives that might find themselves at the bottom of this post, please do share them below and i'll get back to you asap!

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being creative | blog hop

a snippet from my desk

last week i was tagged by lauren over at ohhay! to take place in a blog hop that featured some questions appropriate for creative folk, so i thought it'd be nice to take part and give myself the chance to properly reflect on the way i think and work as an illustrator as i approach my final gear of my degree (gulp!)

what am I working on?

in general, just myself; the way i work, think and organise my time when i don't have terrible deadlines breathing down my neck in particular. this summer i've kind of come to a creative halt and i don't even have a good explanation as to why. part of me thinks it's because of the hectic nine months that was second year left me feeling as though i needed a solid break, but then when i attempted some kind of break i felt guilty, so altogether it meant i was half heartedly churning out some pretty crappy work and then getting frustrated when i wasn't pleased with it, and then all the more frustrated when i just couldn't seem to allow myself the break i was desperate for! it's been a weird three months so far, and i'm really hoping to get myself into a more focussed, positive mindset for when i start back on my course this october. i'm at a point where i'm beginning to freak out about the future because i'm nowhere where i need or want to be, and i know my time's running out before i graduate and should ideally be where i want to be. speaking realistically, i know as a creative we're never fully happy because we're just terribly awkward in that way, but i don't feel that come graduation i'll be where i need to be in order to jump straight in with a creative job, but rather will need to take some time out to further refine my process, technique and style to ensure that my work's of a high enough standard, both for industry and myself. i feel that it's gonna be tricky, mentally, physically and financially, but, as is said in toy story 2, "you can't rush art," and i'm slowly learning to accept that fact. people spend years refining their illustrative styles, so i shouldn't beat myself up over the fact that i still need a bit longer to refine mine. 

rambles aside, what am i working on currently? i've just finished up a commission for a blog header, button and youtube banner for a lovely blogger, so when her new design is up and running i'll be sure to feature that somewhere on my blog. as you've seen, i've been pretty into playing with clay lately, and i intend to keep playing, making more dog breeds, and hopefully even branching out into cat breeds, too! lastly, i have a children's picture book story idea sat in my head (and my sketchbook) that i'm saving to use as a third year project because i'm just so terribly excited about it and feel it could become a really successful project for me if it progresses in a fashion similar to how it already has. i also have a list of some mini projects to try and get through before i start uni again because i feel my portfolio needs sprucing up a little, so with a bit of kick hopefully i'll complete some of those, too!

how does my work differ from others of its genre?

in all honesty, i'm not sure that it does, but it's something i'm extremely conscious of. in previous university projects i've worked in 'safe' styles that i felt were reflective of industry, because, of course, they looked similar to what already existed, and i've noticed that there's a lot of illustration around that looks incredibly similar. of course this doesn't diminish the talent of these illustrators, but i think for illustration as an artform it's not really helping to push boundaries or help it to expand, which is generally what makes way for exciting new ideas and work. in my last module of second year where i wrote and illustrated a picture book, i came slightly outside of my comfort zone and attempted working in an organic manner that felt natural and somewhat unique to me, and overall i'm pretty happy with the outcome of it; it's not perfect, but for me it's a step in the right direction. if i were to try and verbalise what i'm attempting to work towards with my work, i think i'd describe it as the love child of gemma correll and lorna scobie's work. i love the character, humour and expression present within gemma's work, and i love the gutsy, childlike, brave mark-making in lorna's work, and i feel that i want to express character and humour as loosely and naturally as possible within my own pieces, and so take inspiration from their work on a daily basis by keeping up to date with their twitter and instagram accounts. of course it becomes kind of tricky when you say you 'take inspiration' from other illustrators because then arises the question of copying, but i think i could safely say that my work doesn't mimic either of their styles, however upon inspection you could probably derive that they were sources of inspiration for me. 

how does my writing/creating process work?

as much as i struggle creatively from time to time, there truly is no better feeling than when the ball starts rolling for a new project. for me, writing and illustrating happen simultaneously; i usually begin with a small idea that i'll jot down, begin sketching it, the sketch will then present new ideas that i take notes of, and so on and so forth until the images and words exist as two separate entities. for me this is the probably most natural and efficient way of working, because often images can inspire words that possibly wouldn't have made sense to just exist verbally. when writing a story, i've learnt that it's what the words and images can say within themselves as well as supporting one another, so i've really learnt to have fun with narratives and the sub-narratives that exist within them and the tiny idiosyncrasies that exist within sketches that help to build up a character to make it as exciting and unique as possible as a storyteller. in terms of my illustration process alone, however, it normally goes in such a fashion:

sketch idea > love idea > develop idea with colour > internal self doubt crisis > scrap piece and mourn its beginnings in my sketchbook

i still struggle quite a lot with my illustration process and i think i give up a lot more than i should allow myself to, but as i addressed in the first question, it's something i'm working on, and in time, i'll get there. 

why do I write/create?

drawing has always been something that i've just done, and it never went away. i was somewhat misguided up until i turned 19 about my creative direction (the fact i chose to study graphic design at university says it all!) but luckily once i realised what made me tick it all turned around quite rapidly. for me, drawing's always been one kind of outlet for any particular ideas i've had, but i also find that it provides me with enjoyment and can help me to relax and unwind when i need to just clear my mind of things. as for writing, it's something that i've only really developed a particular interest in since getting into picture books as they helped me to open my mind to the content within them and the topics they tend to cover, and it highlighted to me that i can express thoughts and ideas in a concise, passive manner that has purpose, rather than getting into long, heated rants on an online blogging platform as i had done in the past. oops! i guess finding my interest in picture books was something of a natural progression for me, and it also means that now my ideas and my drawings can come together in a format that suits both them and me. 

i'd like to thank lauren for tagging me to take part in this, and finish up by saying that i tag whoever is reading this that would like to complete it; i think the term 'creative' is so broad, and i think it'd be interesting to see who may go on to share this based on their creative interests! so please, if you decide to complete this yourself, do feel free to leave a link to your post below in the comments so i can check it out myself :)

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